Things have been stressful and complicated these last couple of months, mainly because of having to deal with the disposal of my Mother's belongings, a task which has been the main focus of my attentions. It's been somewhat traumatic and emotional.
I've somehow lost the enthusiasm for dealing with the release of new albums, of which there are many waiting in the wings for mastering and artwork. A hell of a lot of unheard music which deserves to reach the ears of those who are ready for it.
And then there are even newer recordings using my relatively recent Cubase software installation. There are approaching over 100 new tracks, all of which require sorting though, sorting out and allocating to individual albums.
All of this unheard material overwhelms what has been released before. It redefines, restructures and moves my music on again. A challenge to listeners perhaps, but a fresh perspective for me and a continuing evolution of the work.
The loss of enthusiasm has nothing to do with the music but is entirely due to my depression after my Mother's passing. I will, I hope, conquer this dark mood in time. But for now, my one solace is to continue to record, over and over. Because when I'm giving myself to the creative moment, all worries pass away, at least for a while.
The only thing I can offer additionally, is that the connection is not gone, just moved to a different frequency. Best wishes and support from that which is.
Sending you best wishes Bill.
Toby
Bill,
There are so many emotions involved when we lose a much loved parent. We're all different in the way that we cope with things. From people who don't understand there is talk about getting back to normal, but for most of us this will never happen. We have lost a much loved person and our lives won't be the same again.
Thanks for sharing your intimate thoughts,
Roger
You do what you need to do, Bill. We'll be here when the time comes for you to share the music.
Hard to imagine how it could be otherwise. When it‘s time for you to share, the fresh perspective and continuing evolution you mention sound very intriguing. I’m sure this group will be ready when you are.